Bible Camp

       Hey blogettes! It's Smiles here, and I am back from a very fun, crazy, and uplifting week at Bible camp. It turned out to be better and less stressful than I thought it would be. I was the only 14 year old there but you know what I will be the future and more of the older people before you know it. I'm ready to take on that challenge. I learned a lot in the five days while I was there but I spent the first two days being so homesick because people weren't opening themselves to me and then two amazing girls did open themselves to me. They were both named Abby or whatever spelling you may like and one of them was from the area and the other one was from some place down south but was spending the summer in our state and wanted to go to bible camp with the other Abby.
       I was happy when they opened themselves to me because it meant that people saw me and saw that I was worth a shot. I like people who are open and adventurous and welcoming. That really helped me feel good and on the same level. Anyways got to go.

10 Days Till Bible Camp

        Hey, blogettes! It's me Smiles here! Sorry I haven't written in a while, as you can tell from my last few posts I have been busy both emotionally and physically, and am about to get busier as you can tell by the title of this post. I think that this will be my last post sadly before camp but there will be a post after camp telling you how much fun that I had there. I am also going to be walking in a local parade to promote bible school which is actually this coming week believe it or not. Wow where has this summer gone? School will be starting in a month and actually part of me is ready for that. I am ready to have technology at my finger tips again even though I do have a smart phone now, and those of you that know me well can stop me and ask for my phone number or snapchat account as to be on the safe side of things I will not be putting them on here. 

       I am also really excited to get back into the swing of things because that means cross country time and then the start of cross country as well. I still love cross country so much and maybe even more even though it does hurt me thanks to whatever happened in track. Anyways the library closes soon so I better start heading home. Anyways wish me luck and stay beautiful and loyal blogettes! I promise that I will try to find more time to write posts to you ladies because you deserve better. After all this is your blog. I am just the writer posting things that you should know about me or might enjoy.

Family Matters

        Hey, blogettes! It's Smiles here, and sorry I haven't written in a while. I have been really busy and my knee has been killing me lately. Anyways this post is mainly about family because this month there has been a lot of that.
        My great grandma, Harriet Shriver past away on June 7th at 6 PM. My aunt just left her side 15 minutes before she went and I went about two hours before she past away. I told her that I loved her so much and that it was okay if she went and that we would be fine without her. I think she got the message it's just that she wouldn't go in front of us. I know that now she is at peace and is making one heck of an angel in heaven. We had family from all over, Wisconsin, Kentucky, Florida, Iowa, and Michigan in town to give her an awesome send off.
         Bible camp for me is at Willowbrook once again this summer, and it is from July 20-25 so expect a post about it. I am excited for it yet a little nervous at the same time because I am the only person from my church going to it and it will be my first year of Senior camp which last year seemed awesome because you go more in depth with things and you do more activities. I guess going by myself will pretty much force me to branch out and make friends with new people especially my cabin mates otherwise it is going to be a long five days and four night camp. I am hoping that we have sunny weather but that it is just a tad bit cooler than it was last year.
           Today is my nephew Oden's second birthday and I just wanted to take time and give him a special shout out because he has changed my life and makes me laugh. He enjoys tackling and chasing me around. His favorite words right now are no hi and mine. He also like to meow like a cat and moo like a cow and count at random times.
            See what I mean by this post is all about family. I just thought I would add this little bit in but lately someone has been posting unkind comments directed at me on this blog and I have tried not to let it get to me or this but I need it to stop because it is affecting the readers of this blog so if you wouldn't say it in person at let's say church or school don't post it on here. Think about how it would make you feel to have that be you getting that message. Okay? I know I can disable the anonymous commenting but I don't have the heart to. I don't want to shut down some girls voices.

Family

         Hey, blogettes! It's me, Smiles, and well although my summer is going great I'm not so smiley because my great grandma is slowly dying. It has brought some of my family to go and see her though which is a good thing but it is sad that it takes someone dying to make them go and pay a visit and come together but better now than never right? I am just praying that the Lord takes her soon because she is suffering and well it makes me suffer emotionally too. I am hoping though that this will make our family stronger and lovable.
         I have been busy catching up on my sleep and just taking it easy. I have bible camp in six weeks and I am so excited. It's just that I am going to miss my great grandma so much. I know that she will be going to a better place though when she dies and that means everything to me. We have so many fun memories together but when she suffers that just makes me wonder and makes me want to know at peace and stuff like that. I have relized the importance of family. Anyways I have got to go now. She might not make this night so we are going up and seeing her and just pray that I don't lose it in front of everyone because when I lose it it's over.

Track Season 2014 = FAIL

So, as you can tell by the title, track this year didn't go to well. I didn't get a ribbon in any events, even though I did get fourth with my distance medley at one meet, but of corse that school didn't give out ribbons. I chose long distance in the first place because I knew I could definitely not run sprints. So I ran long distance, and I was a lot better than I was ever at it, and I improved my mile by almost three minutes! But sadly that still wasn't fast enough to get me placed. I ran an open 800 in almost every meet, and I never placed in any of those. So I made a game plan so I'll be better for next year. This summer, I am going to try to run, four out of the seven days of the week, and work out almost everyday. I am also going to eat healthier, and I'm not just saying that this time. Next year my goal will be to get two ribbons to make up for the one I didn't get this year. Hopefully that will make me get in better shape so that I can run faster. I don't have a problem with length anymore, just the speed. So that's all I have for right now expect that school it almost over (yay!) but I won't get my laptop back (boo!). But I downloaded the blogger app on my phone so hopefully I'll be able to update every now and then. Talk to you later!

Chillin

        Hey, blogettes! It's Smiles here. I am done with science early, so I get to do some fun things for the next couple of days, and I decided that I would make a post for you ladies to enjoy. Anyways, conference track is today, and I am super nervous for that because I am running against my best friends from honor choir. I also messed up my knee and this is the first time back on the track after that which I thought would end my season. Everyone was like why did you finish if you knew your knee was messed up? I always said that I wanted to know that I finished this race for me and if this was the season ending race I wanted to know that I finished and finished as strong as I could with a knee that was on fire and that I could not straighten or really put a normal amount of weight on it. I honestly thought that my knee would be worse than it was but thank god it isn't and sure I will need knee surgery but you know what that is okay. I can take that because it is coming in the off season and I should be back in action for cross country next year which is all that really matters for me. Cross country is my sport and the one thing that I care about the most.
        I also like band and choir and acting in the school's musical and getting to be with my friends and stuff like that but cross country is like the one time where I am really free to be me and be open and shine the real light. Any other time I feel like sometimes I have to hide things for fear that people will not like it because it is too different and it would make them look weird and uncool hanging out with me. Know what though, I may be bad at some things and totally crazy and weird with my actions but I like that and it makes me me and I find myself to be a good person who belongs on this earth. I love cross country because we go to a school in the town next to ours because there isn't enough kids interested in the sport. When we come together it's like we are big family, and we get along well and have a good time. I'm really looking forward to this season and some new news is that we have 20 kids from our school in both seventh and eighth grade and I will be running as an eighth grader compared to the eight people in both seventh and eighth grade that we had last year, and both of these times I included girls and boys together. Last year there was only three girls and we were all in seventh grade.
        Cross country may be hard but it is fun and you learn life skills and become a better runner and see new things. In my school's case it also allows us to compete at a higher level and a larger scale than we would if we had our own cross country program like some people do want but I feel like we won't get it because twenty kids in seventh and eighth grade with only like six being eighth graders won't get us a program no offense or anything and we are all cool with the other school and they are cool and treat us well so there is really no reason for us to split. I mean that would bump both schools down a level and we have high regard at the three a level right now and we don't want to change that. We like that heat and we like the pressure. We are also so flexible because some meets we are highly regarded 2A groups or a 3A group that may have some high regards but not as much as we do when we compete as 2A groups.
        I also like cross country because everyone supports everyone. I mean it doesn't matter what school you are from after the start of the race because when you are out of the chute and throughout the race you are combined together and having a steady pace or finding your pace and sticking to it. Everyone that passes you usually says that you are doing a good job and to keep it up and that you are almost done. The crowd also is nuts for everyone and calls out names of schools that are running past and looking down as we all are about halfway through and near the race because we are pushing through and digging deep trying to find the energy that may not be there. The support that we also get from other cross country runners is amazing but then again they know what we are going through and how hard things may be for us, and that we are tired and running low on energy and we get down thinking about how we may not finish because there is nothing really left.
         Anyways, that is my take on some random things right now that have impacted my life and are on my mind greatly right now. I hope that you enjoyed seeing a snapshot of my mind but this is just a little piece. I don't do these posts very often because I know readers probably don't like that because it really doesn't relate to them and it could get very boring about reading about someone else's life and hearing them talk about a sport that most people care less about. I have already talked a lot about cross country already but that is like my life, and I have no clue where I would be without it or where I would be if we got our own program because we wouldn't have the kids from the other school to have fun even though the kids from our school that do it are very fun, nice, caring, supportive, and down to earth, which is another reason why I like them because they are laid back and they aren't bratty like some of the other girls are.

Summer!

        Hey, blogettes! It's Smiles here. Sorry I haven't written on here in a while. I have been crazy busy, but it's been awesome and something I will always remember. I had a band and choir concert tonight, and I thought that I rocked it and that our band sounded better than it ever has. Tomorrow is conference track and I think I will dominate and bring it because it is the last meet of the season and I am going to need knee surgery anyways so I should just go all out and not even care about how messed up my knee is and what limits I have. I am going to break them and push pass them because I want to finish out the season knowing that I gave this meet my all. I am only in one event so I am going to push myself through the event and know that from the feelings and the sensation in my knee that I pushed and got through it. I want a PR. I want to do my best and give my team a chance to know what it feels like to be conference champs. We were that for cross country, and we went on to get runner's up at state when we were state champs last year.
        Either way winning something that high up there gives your team a highly regarded image and everyone dreads when they see you pull up at meets and they know that they will have to bring it in order to beat you. Sure that puts pressure on you to be giving it your all and not slacking all the time but hey it's a good feeling to be the top dog and have people fear you and the talent and what not you bring along with you. My team brings along the fun because there is never a dull moment and we are all always smiling and having a good time with each other. Sure the boys are there but I don't care because they just add to the mix and make it feel like cross country all over again.
        I feel like running is my home. Running is where I belong and when I run I can get away from all the problems and see me for me and see that I am still so beautiful and graceful. I feel like my life matters for something when I run and it renews my hope. I see the real me and what I live for and I fight harder even though it hurts. I know when I stop running I will go back to the world where I sometimes hold back and dread being there because of the support that I get from people.
        I am a beauriful waqerful persojn who lives on this earth. I am just like everyone else and I have earned my right to be where I am today dter all that I have gone through. Anyways for summer I will try to write whenever I can however I won't have access to a laptop and next year we will have Ipads and not laptops so I will see how running this will go.