Hey, blogettes! Wow, has this summer gone by fast or what? I don't know about anyone else, but I'm kind of ready to go back to school. I miss seeing the people that this blog is for everyday, and I miss hearing them give input or talk about the blog at school, and it is fun knowing that the boys if they have something like this that mine is probably way more organized, fun, and better because you know that girls can do everything that boys can except for we can do it better. We have willpower to get things done, and in case you haven't noticed, we girls tend to fight for what we believe in.
That and I miss my laptop and the freedom it gave me to write a post whenever I wanted to, and the way that I was connected to the world through it. I had everything I needed for a good life. I also had everything I needed to do well in school and be super smart in almost everything, all thanks to having the internet basically at my fingertips, and a few words typed into a search box.
This blog is going to undergo some changes this year. Like I'm going to do vlogs, music videos of cover songs, as well as sing some songs that I wrote myself, and now will start to sing it because I have found myself and my voice this summer and now I am going to raise it. The me that went through bullying is now gone for good. There is nothing left, and the new me is ready to start shining. I feel like it already has. Now, I am going to focus my life in helping girls who are bullied in the same forms I was, and telling the world about the Lord, and living life to the fullest.
The teenage years are a whirlwind, with people trying to find who they really are, and hopefully our blog will help us all survive these odd years of our life.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
Uplifting Summer
Hey, blogettes! If I were to describe my summer in one word, that word would be uplifting. I've had a great summer overall, but there were a few bumps in the road. I had a black eye, and was on crutches for a week, from these boys at the local pool, they thought it would be fun to body slam me to the bottom, but they got kicked out so it wasn't really fun for them, there was some drama, and a terrible loss of life that is still hard on me believe it or not. But the good outweighed the bad stuff big time.
I went to see TobyMac in concert last night, and it was so uplifting and a really fun time. One of my friends who had seats down in front on the dirt track at the fair ground got asked by TobyMac himself to dance on stage during the last song. That was so cool. I'm now proud to say that I am a true Christian and I am not going to hide my faith away any longer because I found myself this summer so it is time now to show the world who I really am. I've been hiding for the past four years. It's time that I make my come back and leave my mark on this world. As a bullying survivor, I'm confident that this is the right time.
He played my favorite two songs, and I cried because Unstoppable brought me back to the time where I was being bullied and I played that just to have that confidence boost to get through the day, and City on Our Knees, well that was the song that I played when I first got in the bullying mess for some reason, and I will continue to play it even though I'm no longer in that mess praise the lord. It was just awful in those four years, that I'm so happy that I overcame and I never want to go back there again. I'm unstoppable now. I am going to do the things that I want to do because I want to leave MY mark on this world, not anyone else's mark.
In twenty one days, that will be happening, and I am kind of nervous. I hope people like and accept the real me, and if not they will have a long four or five years with me because I'm not changing anymore. I'll only change for me, because what I want is what counts. Not what anyone else wants. If I listened to other people like I did before I'd be going a million different directions and things would catch up with me sooner or later. Believe me I wish I could go back four years and change everything back but I can't do that. I wasted four years of my life.
My friends tried to tell me that from the start but I didn't bother to listen to them and now all I can say is sorry because they were right, and they left me. I have new friends now, but they won't ever be as good as the one who saw me through. She's a Christian as well, and thanked me for being so open about my faith on this blog. I just told her that I wasn't all the way open until now. Thanks for pushing me this far Rachel and TobyMac. I love you guys lots, and I look up to you as my role models because you are so amazing. I'll never be as amazing as you, or even close. I'd fall flat on my face and be back to square one before that would happen.
I'd also like to say thanks to all the blogettes who have viewed this blog and made it into what it is today. I would have given up a long time ago if it wasn't for you. The vlogs start in 21 days and I am nervous for that because I have to be spot on because I am recorded. These vlogs will make my blog be more interactive and allow you to have more of a connection to me, and the things that I write about.
This school year might get wild at times, but there is not going to be a dull free moment. I want to make sure that everyone is smiling, and doing good. No one deserves to feel down. I felt down a lot last year and I held those feelings in and put a fake smile on my face. No one could really understand what that year was like, but I made it through and I overcame bullying. I am now going to tell others that they need to spit out their feelings. It isn't healthy holding them in. Bullying is not okay and if you speak out and up against it, you'll get out sooner because the bullies know that they won't win. I didn't do this until the fourth year. I should have done it sooner but the lord had it all planned. It all happened for some reason or another, and I know that I can tell others about it.
If you are being bullied, I want you to know that I am here for you, and that you do matter and you do have a voice that needs to be heard. I know my passion was singing and acting. This blog is also my voice I guess. Oh, and here's a thing I learned about friendship a couple of weekends ago. It is possible to stumble upon friends. I did, and we have been texting each other a lot. This blog actually connected me with a friend as well who just adores this like crazy.
I went to see TobyMac in concert last night, and it was so uplifting and a really fun time. One of my friends who had seats down in front on the dirt track at the fair ground got asked by TobyMac himself to dance on stage during the last song. That was so cool. I'm now proud to say that I am a true Christian and I am not going to hide my faith away any longer because I found myself this summer so it is time now to show the world who I really am. I've been hiding for the past four years. It's time that I make my come back and leave my mark on this world. As a bullying survivor, I'm confident that this is the right time.
He played my favorite two songs, and I cried because Unstoppable brought me back to the time where I was being bullied and I played that just to have that confidence boost to get through the day, and City on Our Knees, well that was the song that I played when I first got in the bullying mess for some reason, and I will continue to play it even though I'm no longer in that mess praise the lord. It was just awful in those four years, that I'm so happy that I overcame and I never want to go back there again. I'm unstoppable now. I am going to do the things that I want to do because I want to leave MY mark on this world, not anyone else's mark.
In twenty one days, that will be happening, and I am kind of nervous. I hope people like and accept the real me, and if not they will have a long four or five years with me because I'm not changing anymore. I'll only change for me, because what I want is what counts. Not what anyone else wants. If I listened to other people like I did before I'd be going a million different directions and things would catch up with me sooner or later. Believe me I wish I could go back four years and change everything back but I can't do that. I wasted four years of my life.
My friends tried to tell me that from the start but I didn't bother to listen to them and now all I can say is sorry because they were right, and they left me. I have new friends now, but they won't ever be as good as the one who saw me through. She's a Christian as well, and thanked me for being so open about my faith on this blog. I just told her that I wasn't all the way open until now. Thanks for pushing me this far Rachel and TobyMac. I love you guys lots, and I look up to you as my role models because you are so amazing. I'll never be as amazing as you, or even close. I'd fall flat on my face and be back to square one before that would happen.
I'd also like to say thanks to all the blogettes who have viewed this blog and made it into what it is today. I would have given up a long time ago if it wasn't for you. The vlogs start in 21 days and I am nervous for that because I have to be spot on because I am recorded. These vlogs will make my blog be more interactive and allow you to have more of a connection to me, and the things that I write about.
This school year might get wild at times, but there is not going to be a dull free moment. I want to make sure that everyone is smiling, and doing good. No one deserves to feel down. I felt down a lot last year and I held those feelings in and put a fake smile on my face. No one could really understand what that year was like, but I made it through and I overcame bullying. I am now going to tell others that they need to spit out their feelings. It isn't healthy holding them in. Bullying is not okay and if you speak out and up against it, you'll get out sooner because the bullies know that they won't win. I didn't do this until the fourth year. I should have done it sooner but the lord had it all planned. It all happened for some reason or another, and I know that I can tell others about it.
If you are being bullied, I want you to know that I am here for you, and that you do matter and you do have a voice that needs to be heard. I know my passion was singing and acting. This blog is also my voice I guess. Oh, and here's a thing I learned about friendship a couple of weekends ago. It is possible to stumble upon friends. I did, and we have been texting each other a lot. This blog actually connected me with a friend as well who just adores this like crazy.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Last Post Before Camp!
Hey, blogettes! I just wanted you to know that this is most likely going to be my last post before I go to bible camp in three days. I don't know when I will write again because I know that these next week at least is going to be really busy for me. I just got over a black eye, but eye shadow really seemed to do the trick most of the time. I'm really nervous to go to camp because I am the only first year in the group that I am going with. I have fallen madly in love with the Pandora app for the Ipod because it freshens up my mind with the fact that this is my summer and I am going to make sure it is filled to the brink with fun. This is my summer and no one is going to take it away from me.
Nobody is going to change that for anything, and I am going to make sure that this sudden strike of confidence lasts throughout the school year. The party of the summer doesn't need to stop just because school has started again. It just means that I need to dial it down a bit. I am going to make sure that people know that life is a party meant to celebrate and have fun. Even when we have school or work, we can still find time to have fun. The overall party never ends because there is always someone having fun.
The more I think about camp the more my heart races. I just want the time to be here already, because I have been looking forward to attending this camp for awhile now. Make that at least a couple of years, but I finally got serious enough to speak up and say hey may I go to camp this year. I'll admit that I never thought that my parents would say yes. I can't believe that they did either. I was thinking did someone trade out my mom because my mom usually never lets me do something that is a lot of fun where I will be away from home like this. I gladly thanked them and started getting the information that I needed. First they told me that I had enough money to do something really fun. I automatically turned to bible camp because that is something that like I wrote before have wanted to attend for a while now.
It will help me get deeper with my faith and walk with the Lord. I figure that if this is the summer and time where I am reinventing myself and finding the real me then I should go all out and get deeper into my faith. I need to balance my faith with life and if it isn't fresh like me it will just be weird. I'm changing this time because I want to and I got so off track with people telling me what to be and where to go instead of going the way that my heart and mind wanted me to go. I would have been better off doing that. I would not be in half of the mess that I am right now. I wouldn't be so lost, and people would not be able to say, "Remember the time when you did this and you failed?" or "Why did you do that?" "Why did you waste your time doing that?" I would not have to spend this summer finding out who I am. I could just spend this summer having even more fun. I could spend less time looking like a lost puppy or like I am out of place and don't know what I am doing.
Oh, and here's a note, I'm sick and tired of downgradement. I'm taking charge and saying that I am worth something and I don't need anyone trash talking me. If you don't like what I do or my blogs then avoid me or quit reading the blog. Let me tell you now, my friends have wrote me letters telling me how much my blog means to them and how much better their lives have gotten and how much easier middle school has been because of it. I feel good that I am making a mark in this world, and I am making a difference even if it is a little one it is still a difference. This is my summer, and my time to shine. Nothing is going to get me down anymore because I have more power than those people. I have the Lord and with the Lord I can do anything. Nothing is impossible with him on my side.
I just don't care what people think. I'm going to be me and embrace my flaws. Who cares about being accepted. I have learned that anything I do to get closer to being perfect and accepted gets me no where in life. They will just keep raising the bar so it isn't worth trying to get. I have wasted enough of my time doing that when I should have been finding myself. I have big flaws that I will never be able to change like my crooked pinkie toes. Even though I can have surgery on them it doesn't mean that I will do it. The tube that I have in my stomach to drain excess fluids that I have finally grown out of and that is believed to be the cause of my migraines that cannot be taken out because it could cause brain damage. Those are big flaws, that I have learned to embrace.
My out of date clothes, I have found a way to update. I will tell you that in a later post. In my next post I will have details of all my travels in this next week.
Here's a random fact: I think I have shed more tears in the past two weeks than I have in a long time. I think it is because someone is just envious of the fact that I have, not having a big head here, an amazing blog that makes a difference again even if it is a small one in this world.
Anyways, I will write again whenever my next trip to the library is. My sister can drive now so I guess I could get a ride from her. I thank you all for viewing my blog even when it hasn't been updated for a long time. I promise I will get better at this whole ordeal, I really will. Next summer will be better because I have a summer like it under my belt.
Nobody is going to change that for anything, and I am going to make sure that this sudden strike of confidence lasts throughout the school year. The party of the summer doesn't need to stop just because school has started again. It just means that I need to dial it down a bit. I am going to make sure that people know that life is a party meant to celebrate and have fun. Even when we have school or work, we can still find time to have fun. The overall party never ends because there is always someone having fun.
The more I think about camp the more my heart races. I just want the time to be here already, because I have been looking forward to attending this camp for awhile now. Make that at least a couple of years, but I finally got serious enough to speak up and say hey may I go to camp this year. I'll admit that I never thought that my parents would say yes. I can't believe that they did either. I was thinking did someone trade out my mom because my mom usually never lets me do something that is a lot of fun where I will be away from home like this. I gladly thanked them and started getting the information that I needed. First they told me that I had enough money to do something really fun. I automatically turned to bible camp because that is something that like I wrote before have wanted to attend for a while now.
It will help me get deeper with my faith and walk with the Lord. I figure that if this is the summer and time where I am reinventing myself and finding the real me then I should go all out and get deeper into my faith. I need to balance my faith with life and if it isn't fresh like me it will just be weird. I'm changing this time because I want to and I got so off track with people telling me what to be and where to go instead of going the way that my heart and mind wanted me to go. I would have been better off doing that. I would not be in half of the mess that I am right now. I wouldn't be so lost, and people would not be able to say, "Remember the time when you did this and you failed?" or "Why did you do that?" "Why did you waste your time doing that?" I would not have to spend this summer finding out who I am. I could just spend this summer having even more fun. I could spend less time looking like a lost puppy or like I am out of place and don't know what I am doing.
Oh, and here's a note, I'm sick and tired of downgradement. I'm taking charge and saying that I am worth something and I don't need anyone trash talking me. If you don't like what I do or my blogs then avoid me or quit reading the blog. Let me tell you now, my friends have wrote me letters telling me how much my blog means to them and how much better their lives have gotten and how much easier middle school has been because of it. I feel good that I am making a mark in this world, and I am making a difference even if it is a little one it is still a difference. This is my summer, and my time to shine. Nothing is going to get me down anymore because I have more power than those people. I have the Lord and with the Lord I can do anything. Nothing is impossible with him on my side.
I just don't care what people think. I'm going to be me and embrace my flaws. Who cares about being accepted. I have learned that anything I do to get closer to being perfect and accepted gets me no where in life. They will just keep raising the bar so it isn't worth trying to get. I have wasted enough of my time doing that when I should have been finding myself. I have big flaws that I will never be able to change like my crooked pinkie toes. Even though I can have surgery on them it doesn't mean that I will do it. The tube that I have in my stomach to drain excess fluids that I have finally grown out of and that is believed to be the cause of my migraines that cannot be taken out because it could cause brain damage. Those are big flaws, that I have learned to embrace.
My out of date clothes, I have found a way to update. I will tell you that in a later post. In my next post I will have details of all my travels in this next week.
Here's a random fact: I think I have shed more tears in the past two weeks than I have in a long time. I think it is because someone is just envious of the fact that I have, not having a big head here, an amazing blog that makes a difference again even if it is a small one in this world.
Anyways, I will write again whenever my next trip to the library is. My sister can drive now so I guess I could get a ride from her. I thank you all for viewing my blog even when it hasn't been updated for a long time. I promise I will get better at this whole ordeal, I really will. Next summer will be better because I have a summer like it under my belt.
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Laptop Post
Hey, blogettes! My older sister is being nice and letting me use her laptop to write this post today. I guess it's because she is in a good mood because she had a date with her boyfriend this afternoon. Anyways, I'm writing this post to tell you about what happened last night. I talked to Ali Givens the girl who started the Voice program, and she totally disapproved of me being a honorary member of the Voice because that meant that I was a part of it when really I should be in the crowd of middle schoolers learning from them. I saw what she meant, and I just told her that I wasn't a member of the groups that went around talking to the classes, I told her that I was more of the behind the scenes organizer.
She said that was nice that I was helping the program stay organized, but I could tell that she was a little disappointed that I was involved in the program in the first place because it is for high schoolers only, so I quickly got off of that subject, and I just walked away from her because I wasn't going to have anymore drama.
You are probably wondering how I talked to her last night because she is a softball player, so she would be busy playing her game, but I stayed after, and I talked to her while she was packing up her gear.
Running my sister's laptop is a cinch because it is is a MacBook G4. It's silver, and really sleek, and professional looking even though it is huge and very thick. I've got skills with any kind of MacBook because I got to work on one along side most of the girls reading this blog throughout the school year, because our school has a wonderful 1 to 1 program for students in 6-12 grade. The program has opened up a lot of doors for me, and some of them were amazing, and others just made me wonder why I even bothered to open the door into something negative like it gave me.
I also wrote in my journal last night about the incident that happened in the morning and then it hit me, I needed to go my own way or else people will keep on thinking that it is okay to treat me like that because I keep on listening to them and doing and being what they want me to be. I'm never who I want to be until now. From now on, I am no longer holding back my feelings or trying to hide them, I'm going to show them. From now on, I'm only going to listen to my heart and let it lead me. I need to do that or else my future is going to be really hard because I did nothing that I needed to do in order to be prepared for the job that I am hoping to hold.
I know that I will never be perfect enough to live up to your standards, so I mise well at least live up to my loser low standards so that I can feel like I matter even though I don't because I can't do anything right, and I really don't have a social life besides this blog. I'm just going to earn the title of the Biggest Loser Ever in Middle School so I mise well do things that will bring me success in the future because success is too far to reach and too late to reach at this time.
That doesn't mean I'm not going to try and reach it, believe me I am going to try with all of my heart, and it might happen because when I get onto something I try and make it work. I'm going to find myself, and be myself, and not listen to what the other people out there have to say about the person that I am turning out to be because it will please me and help me out in my future which is all that will ever really matter. I'm not going to quit on this blog though, even though it really isn't me.
Instead, I'm going to take this blog on a totally different path that will show me, and who I am and how far I've come in finding myself, and yet do things that represent you readers out there as well because this blog won't turn out to be all about me after all. This is a blog for the public, and it is going to stay that way. That's my promise to you out there. Keep on reading my blog and you will see the change throughout the rest of this summer and into the school year. My blog is about to get crazy, fun, and interactive. It's going to be better than it has ever been before because I am going to get more ideas, and I am just going to try and run with them as much as I can.
Of course that doesn't mean that it will always end up on the blog because sometimes it's really stupid or would not make sense, and I am not going to trash the blog. I am going to keep it clean, and easy and fun for you to read and understand. Maybe it will even spark some ideas for you to run with, and do great things in this world with. This is our world, let's shape it together into the world we want it to be.
She said that was nice that I was helping the program stay organized, but I could tell that she was a little disappointed that I was involved in the program in the first place because it is for high schoolers only, so I quickly got off of that subject, and I just walked away from her because I wasn't going to have anymore drama.
You are probably wondering how I talked to her last night because she is a softball player, so she would be busy playing her game, but I stayed after, and I talked to her while she was packing up her gear.
Running my sister's laptop is a cinch because it is is a MacBook G4. It's silver, and really sleek, and professional looking even though it is huge and very thick. I've got skills with any kind of MacBook because I got to work on one along side most of the girls reading this blog throughout the school year, because our school has a wonderful 1 to 1 program for students in 6-12 grade. The program has opened up a lot of doors for me, and some of them were amazing, and others just made me wonder why I even bothered to open the door into something negative like it gave me.
I also wrote in my journal last night about the incident that happened in the morning and then it hit me, I needed to go my own way or else people will keep on thinking that it is okay to treat me like that because I keep on listening to them and doing and being what they want me to be. I'm never who I want to be until now. From now on, I am no longer holding back my feelings or trying to hide them, I'm going to show them. From now on, I'm only going to listen to my heart and let it lead me. I need to do that or else my future is going to be really hard because I did nothing that I needed to do in order to be prepared for the job that I am hoping to hold.
I know that I will never be perfect enough to live up to your standards, so I mise well at least live up to my loser low standards so that I can feel like I matter even though I don't because I can't do anything right, and I really don't have a social life besides this blog. I'm just going to earn the title of the Biggest Loser Ever in Middle School so I mise well do things that will bring me success in the future because success is too far to reach and too late to reach at this time.
That doesn't mean I'm not going to try and reach it, believe me I am going to try with all of my heart, and it might happen because when I get onto something I try and make it work. I'm going to find myself, and be myself, and not listen to what the other people out there have to say about the person that I am turning out to be because it will please me and help me out in my future which is all that will ever really matter. I'm not going to quit on this blog though, even though it really isn't me.
Instead, I'm going to take this blog on a totally different path that will show me, and who I am and how far I've come in finding myself, and yet do things that represent you readers out there as well because this blog won't turn out to be all about me after all. This is a blog for the public, and it is going to stay that way. That's my promise to you out there. Keep on reading my blog and you will see the change throughout the rest of this summer and into the school year. My blog is about to get crazy, fun, and interactive. It's going to be better than it has ever been before because I am going to get more ideas, and I am just going to try and run with them as much as I can.
Of course that doesn't mean that it will always end up on the blog because sometimes it's really stupid or would not make sense, and I am not going to trash the blog. I am going to keep it clean, and easy and fun for you to read and understand. Maybe it will even spark some ideas for you to run with, and do great things in this world with. This is our world, let's shape it together into the world we want it to be.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
You Never Realize How Handy a Laptop is Until You Don't Have One
Hey, blogettes! I'm so sorry that I haven't written on my blog for a long time. Believe me, I am trying to write on here more often, but it has been really hard because I am without a laptop, and my parents said that I can't use any of their computers, so if I want to write a post on my blog, I have to walk down to the library, and most of the time there is someone else on the computer, and I hate asking because it's weird, and I'm not that good at public speaking when I am being myself. Acting is something different that I love to do because it doesn't feel weird talking in front of people because you have lines that you memorized, and technically, you aren't you, you are the person that you have been practicing for.
I never realized how much I relied on that laptop the school gave us to use until now because I am so reliant on my own two feet which are sore from my workouts to get me down to the library to use one of their computers. I know that you girls deserve to hear from me more often this summer, so I will try my hardest to get down to the library more often. Might not be any time soon anymore, because I am really busy trying to get ready for my back to back camp trips in two weeks. Anytime after that I will try to plan more trips. I tried writing a post on my Ipod, but that didn't turn out too well. It worked but it took me a long time because my thumbs are huge and the keys on the Ipod Touch Screen Keyboard are small, so it really wasn't a good mix.
Looking outside the library window, it looks like today will be a great day to go to the pool. Today is also a fellow Voice member's first day as a lifeguard, and she emailed me stating how nervous she was, and I told her that I think she was going to do fine. I mean, she has all the traits that I think a good lifeguard should have. I also told her not to be so nervous, because nervous people tend to be distracted, and that would really be a problem, because someone could drown. Some nerves just won't go away because lifeguards always have to be prepared and on edge.
I never realized how much I relied on that laptop the school gave us to use until now because I am so reliant on my own two feet which are sore from my workouts to get me down to the library to use one of their computers. I know that you girls deserve to hear from me more often this summer, so I will try my hardest to get down to the library more often. Might not be any time soon anymore, because I am really busy trying to get ready for my back to back camp trips in two weeks. Anytime after that I will try to plan more trips. I tried writing a post on my Ipod, but that didn't turn out too well. It worked but it took me a long time because my thumbs are huge and the keys on the Ipod Touch Screen Keyboard are small, so it really wasn't a good mix.
Looking outside the library window, it looks like today will be a great day to go to the pool. Today is also a fellow Voice member's first day as a lifeguard, and she emailed me stating how nervous she was, and I told her that I think she was going to do fine. I mean, she has all the traits that I think a good lifeguard should have. I also told her not to be so nervous, because nervous people tend to be distracted, and that would really be a problem, because someone could drown. Some nerves just won't go away because lifeguards always have to be prepared and on edge.
Monday, May 27, 2013
Vlogs Start Either This Summer, or Next School Year. Sorry for the Inconvenience!
Hey, blogettes! It's me and I just wanted you to know that my vlogs will start either this summer, or next school year, and I would like to apologize for any inconveniences this may have caused. I know some of you are super psyched about the things that I post on the blog, and are probably disappointed as you are reading this post. I have a good reason why I am not doing a vlog. I have just gotten over a four day migraine and I don't look like the sharpest pitchfork in the barn just yet, migraines kind of make my thinking go all weird so this post may sound a little weird as you are reading it, and that is also another reason why I am not doing a vlog. If I can't do a blog post that will make sense, it is more likely than not that I will end up making a fool of myself in front of my webcam filming a vlog for you.
Another reason is I injured a hamstring near my right knee during my run on Friday, and I am supposed to keep that elevated, and they said to ice it every now and then, but I am putting constant ice treatments on it so that it will get better faster because being injured just drives me insane. I do have both feet on the two pillows that I am using to keep it elevated, so the difference in elevation isn't that bad, I guess you could say. The good news is, the hamstring did not tear which means I won't need surgery, it was just stretched way past it's limits. The other good news is I am not on crutches, as I opted to tough this one out, after all it was my fault that I didn't stretch before hand. I didn't think I needed to, but obviously I was wrong, and I am stuck paying for that idiotic move now.
Ladies who run, take my advice now, and stretch before you run so that you don't pull/extend a hamstring past it's limits like I did because it is really painful. Believe me. It was even more painful than the four day migraine that I just got over and compared to a time bomb just ticking away the seconds before it exploded. I lost at least a total of 5 hours of sleep because of it. Having chronic migraines stink because they are really painful, most of them are unpredictable, and how long that they will last for remains unknown. Plus even though there is medicine out there to help these kind of things, the medicine doesn't do anything to keep them from happening, they just lessen the pain, and my medicine for these chronic migraines I take before bed because a side effect is sleepiness, and I don't want to fall asleep during the day.
Besides, I really don't have anything to talk about during the vlog as of right now, and it would be a pretty boring with just a bunch of dead air and me staring at the screen trying to figure out what to say. I guess for the first couple of shows it wouldn't hurt for me to use a cheat sheet so that I can stay on task and not bore you to death on one topic for the whole entire show. I want the vlogs to be lively and fun for you ladies, and I am all about making this blog more interactive for you as well, because it is what you deserve after you have stuck with me through all of this. The drama, the pain, me wanting to quit because of cyber bullying, but you girls believed in me, you ladies encouraged me not to give up just because someone out there was being a jerk.
I thank you for not letting me give up on the blog because it is now becoming something that I enjoy doing. I feel like I am giving back to those who have given to me. Oh, that reminds me, I would like to dedicate this post to Moore, Oklahoma, which is five miles away from where my cousins live, especially the 24 people who died when the tornado hit their town, some people died shielding others from the storm. The youngest victim was only 4 months old, and 9 children died at the school because the school really had no safe rooms. I say that our school is pretty lucky to have places where we can go besides underneath the desks in the classroom, if a tornado were to hit.
A guy in our church is also battling stage four lung cancer in both lungs really hard. We all know that he is dying, and he has even admitted to it himself, but he told us in church yesterday not to cry when he was gone because he would be up in heaven cured of this cancer, and watching over us. I cried because that man was the baby sitter who used to baby sit me's husband, and I knew him ever since I was two. I saw him when he was healthy. I saw two previous cancers be removed from his body, and I know that it is probably too late for a miracle to happen now, but I am still praying for one, because with God I believe that anything is possible and that it is never too late.
His cancer is really hitting me hard, and watching him slowly die every day is killing me inside. I guess it is hitting me hard because I have memories of all the fun times I had with him when he was healthy, and when I was little. I remember that he used to throw me up in the air and then catch me, and Linda would recall me laughing so hard that the milk that we had for a snack went out my nose. I also remember rolling around on the floor with him, and him helping me haul the Big Wheel which is a tricycle type thing with a large wheel, pedals, and handles in front, with a narrow space in the middle and a seat with what I used to call tiny wheels in the back. Linda said that I was amused by that, as well.
I'll really miss him because I have plenty of fond memories of him, and he is a big part of our church. If I could trade his lungs for my lungs, I gladly would. Sure mine aren't the best pair of lungs out there but they are cancer free, and that would keep him around here longer. He has a son in the military is actually has a Sargent title in the Marines. He is off training on a base somewhere in the United States, and was denied leave to come and see his dad, so the Red Cross had to get involved, and they got him leave in the middle of June to come home and see his dad, if his dad will make it that long. He had all he could do to make it from the back of the church to the pew where his wife and him sit for church.
There were two benefits to raise money for the family to use for whatever they needed. The first one was in 2008 when he first got diagnosed with it, and that was when 'Team Wallace' was born. We only printed t-shirts to be sold for the first benefit which my dad, and the neighbors organized. There was a silent auction, supper, raffle, games, oh, and did I mention that the parking lot was packed full of people having a good time and supporting a good cause. It was amazing to see the community come together and rally around Mike and Linda. The second one was just last month actually. There was lunch/supper because it started at noon, and went until five, minute to win it games, a kids build and create zone, silent auction, raffle, and a bake sale. The also sold t-shirts, and bracelets with the 'Team Wallace' theme like we had at the last benefit.
Mike didn't want to have another benefit for him because there was another church member who was battling cancer. Her name is Terri, and she is battling Stage Three Liver Cancer, but the tumor is shrinking and she is expected to survive. Mike said in an interview with our local paper that he didn't want to be taking what others may have needed to have, but Cody encouraged Mike to let them go ahead with that extra benefit for him because he was sure that we would be taking care of Terri in some way. I'm kind of glad that we had that extra benefit because it was said in church one day that insurance won't cover the oxygen that Mike is on, because Mike is considered to be 'too healthy'. A dying man battling stage four lung cancer considered to be too healthy, what is wrong with insurance these days. Mike is not healthy, he is healthier than some people yes, but he is not healthy. He needs that oxygen to breathe, and he can't get it if there is not any money to fund it with.
Another reason is I injured a hamstring near my right knee during my run on Friday, and I am supposed to keep that elevated, and they said to ice it every now and then, but I am putting constant ice treatments on it so that it will get better faster because being injured just drives me insane. I do have both feet on the two pillows that I am using to keep it elevated, so the difference in elevation isn't that bad, I guess you could say. The good news is, the hamstring did not tear which means I won't need surgery, it was just stretched way past it's limits. The other good news is I am not on crutches, as I opted to tough this one out, after all it was my fault that I didn't stretch before hand. I didn't think I needed to, but obviously I was wrong, and I am stuck paying for that idiotic move now.
Ladies who run, take my advice now, and stretch before you run so that you don't pull/extend a hamstring past it's limits like I did because it is really painful. Believe me. It was even more painful than the four day migraine that I just got over and compared to a time bomb just ticking away the seconds before it exploded. I lost at least a total of 5 hours of sleep because of it. Having chronic migraines stink because they are really painful, most of them are unpredictable, and how long that they will last for remains unknown. Plus even though there is medicine out there to help these kind of things, the medicine doesn't do anything to keep them from happening, they just lessen the pain, and my medicine for these chronic migraines I take before bed because a side effect is sleepiness, and I don't want to fall asleep during the day.
Besides, I really don't have anything to talk about during the vlog as of right now, and it would be a pretty boring with just a bunch of dead air and me staring at the screen trying to figure out what to say. I guess for the first couple of shows it wouldn't hurt for me to use a cheat sheet so that I can stay on task and not bore you to death on one topic for the whole entire show. I want the vlogs to be lively and fun for you ladies, and I am all about making this blog more interactive for you as well, because it is what you deserve after you have stuck with me through all of this. The drama, the pain, me wanting to quit because of cyber bullying, but you girls believed in me, you ladies encouraged me not to give up just because someone out there was being a jerk.
I thank you for not letting me give up on the blog because it is now becoming something that I enjoy doing. I feel like I am giving back to those who have given to me. Oh, that reminds me, I would like to dedicate this post to Moore, Oklahoma, which is five miles away from where my cousins live, especially the 24 people who died when the tornado hit their town, some people died shielding others from the storm. The youngest victim was only 4 months old, and 9 children died at the school because the school really had no safe rooms. I say that our school is pretty lucky to have places where we can go besides underneath the desks in the classroom, if a tornado were to hit.
A guy in our church is also battling stage four lung cancer in both lungs really hard. We all know that he is dying, and he has even admitted to it himself, but he told us in church yesterday not to cry when he was gone because he would be up in heaven cured of this cancer, and watching over us. I cried because that man was the baby sitter who used to baby sit me's husband, and I knew him ever since I was two. I saw him when he was healthy. I saw two previous cancers be removed from his body, and I know that it is probably too late for a miracle to happen now, but I am still praying for one, because with God I believe that anything is possible and that it is never too late.
His cancer is really hitting me hard, and watching him slowly die every day is killing me inside. I guess it is hitting me hard because I have memories of all the fun times I had with him when he was healthy, and when I was little. I remember that he used to throw me up in the air and then catch me, and Linda would recall me laughing so hard that the milk that we had for a snack went out my nose. I also remember rolling around on the floor with him, and him helping me haul the Big Wheel which is a tricycle type thing with a large wheel, pedals, and handles in front, with a narrow space in the middle and a seat with what I used to call tiny wheels in the back. Linda said that I was amused by that, as well.
I'll really miss him because I have plenty of fond memories of him, and he is a big part of our church. If I could trade his lungs for my lungs, I gladly would. Sure mine aren't the best pair of lungs out there but they are cancer free, and that would keep him around here longer. He has a son in the military is actually has a Sargent title in the Marines. He is off training on a base somewhere in the United States, and was denied leave to come and see his dad, so the Red Cross had to get involved, and they got him leave in the middle of June to come home and see his dad, if his dad will make it that long. He had all he could do to make it from the back of the church to the pew where his wife and him sit for church.
There were two benefits to raise money for the family to use for whatever they needed. The first one was in 2008 when he first got diagnosed with it, and that was when 'Team Wallace' was born. We only printed t-shirts to be sold for the first benefit which my dad, and the neighbors organized. There was a silent auction, supper, raffle, games, oh, and did I mention that the parking lot was packed full of people having a good time and supporting a good cause. It was amazing to see the community come together and rally around Mike and Linda. The second one was just last month actually. There was lunch/supper because it started at noon, and went until five, minute to win it games, a kids build and create zone, silent auction, raffle, and a bake sale. The also sold t-shirts, and bracelets with the 'Team Wallace' theme like we had at the last benefit.
Mike didn't want to have another benefit for him because there was another church member who was battling cancer. Her name is Terri, and she is battling Stage Three Liver Cancer, but the tumor is shrinking and she is expected to survive. Mike said in an interview with our local paper that he didn't want to be taking what others may have needed to have, but Cody encouraged Mike to let them go ahead with that extra benefit for him because he was sure that we would be taking care of Terri in some way. I'm kind of glad that we had that extra benefit because it was said in church one day that insurance won't cover the oxygen that Mike is on, because Mike is considered to be 'too healthy'. A dying man battling stage four lung cancer considered to be too healthy, what is wrong with insurance these days. Mike is not healthy, he is healthier than some people yes, but he is not healthy. He needs that oxygen to breathe, and he can't get it if there is not any money to fund it with.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Summer
Hey, blogettes! I will try to work my magic to make sure that I will be able to post on this blog at least twice a month during the summertime, but there is no promises on having frequent posts, but that doesn't mean quit checking out the blog because if I do post something, then you would miss out. That is what you wonderfully epic women deserve. That and a giant boomage for putting up with this freak who can't do anything right. I love you ladies a lot because you have stuck with my blog through all the changes and drama, which I blame on PMS, and just being a lame person with no life at the beginning. I have began on that path of having a life thanks to the Voice program. I am no longer a loser because of the Voice. Being a member has changed a lot in my life, and it has finally changed for the better just a tiny bit.
On the last day of school, I am honestly going to cry, I am crying just writing this post, because sixth grade uncovered a lot. It uncovered a lot more drama, and a lot more freedom. It has uncovered a bullying survivor. I am also crying because someone tried leaving a nasty comment on this blog, but I wasn't going to let it happen. I'm also crying because I haven't figured out the real reason why people always point out and make me feel bad about my mistakes when other people have made the same one. I don't get what the huge deal is about me making mistakes, but apparently, I have learned that nothing I do is right and nothing I do will ever be right. I'm not going to let that bring down one of the last posts. I'm not.
I've decided that I shall post a video because it's time to show the world who I really am. It's time to show the world what I have been hiding. It's time to show the world that I deserve to have a chance to show what I have to offer, and that I am not who you really think I am. I am not one of those computer geeks. I am nothing like that, in fact when I have a problem with my laptop that I can't press a button for, I am down in the Tech office like I was shot out of a cannon.
I decided to upload one of my bloopers to see how it really works and I will add the real vlog later on if the blooper ordeal works out. Besides the blooper I uploaded is really funny. It is when I recorded a report for school, and my swivel chair swiveled out from underneath me I guess. Let's see if the bloopers work, and I will upload the vlog tomorrow. Okay?
On the last day of school, I am honestly going to cry, I am crying just writing this post, because sixth grade uncovered a lot. It uncovered a lot more drama, and a lot more freedom. It has uncovered a bullying survivor. I am also crying because someone tried leaving a nasty comment on this blog, but I wasn't going to let it happen. I'm also crying because I haven't figured out the real reason why people always point out and make me feel bad about my mistakes when other people have made the same one. I don't get what the huge deal is about me making mistakes, but apparently, I have learned that nothing I do is right and nothing I do will ever be right. I'm not going to let that bring down one of the last posts. I'm not.
I've decided that I shall post a video because it's time to show the world who I really am. It's time to show the world what I have been hiding. It's time to show the world that I deserve to have a chance to show what I have to offer, and that I am not who you really think I am. I am not one of those computer geeks. I am nothing like that, in fact when I have a problem with my laptop that I can't press a button for, I am down in the Tech office like I was shot out of a cannon.
I decided to upload one of my bloopers to see how it really works and I will add the real vlog later on if the blooper ordeal works out. Besides the blooper I uploaded is really funny. It is when I recorded a report for school, and my swivel chair swiveled out from underneath me I guess. Let's see if the bloopers work, and I will upload the vlog tomorrow. Okay?
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