Hey, blogettes! If there has been anything that I have learned this week that has stayed with me throughout the week is being strong goes a long ways. It shows people that you are a person that would be worth a try. Sometimes though, being strong is hard with all the judgmental things going on at school that have been aimed at me, I sometimes feel like I don't belong at my own school that I have gone to since PreK. I feel like I don't belong because even my best friends are beginning to shy away from me now, and these notes keep popping up. Although people have gone out of their way to talk to me, I know it is because they went to my church where we were challenged to do that. We were challenged to go out of our way to tell someone that we normally wouldn't find ourselves with something, and brighten their day.
I think that this should be an everyday thing though, and that we should be doing it because we want to do it, not because we were challenged to do it, and we do it to complete the challenge so that we don't have to look like fools when we go back to church. I want to do something to show people that we are all on the same level really, and that we all do matter, and belong where we are and being who we are. I want to start something at lunch where I get a group together and we do a lot of fun things besides eat lunch. I want to show people that we can get along without changing who we are. I want to show people what high school is going to be like but earlier, and I want to make middle school less dramatic.
Being a teenager is bad enough, but middle school is also the time where you really are planning out your future, and finding out who you really are, which is tough enough. I want to make it so that no matter how you turn out, people will accept you either way. I want to show them that we here at Lisbon are yes, a tight chain with each other, that helps each other out, and watches out, but we are also very welcoming and flexible allowing new people to join. At our school right now, new people are treated like royalty, but the funniest thing was, I was never treated that way. I spent recess alone, and was alone because no one wanted to sit at a table with me. I guess that was the first time that it was going to be a rough ride.
Know what, though, I am going to be strong, and I am going to get through it. I have got to keep my guard up at school, and then let it loose here at home. I can't have mental breakdowns at school because then people will know that it's getting to me and they are winning. I want to show them that no, they aren't going to win the fight with me anymore, and that they should give up while they are ahead.They also shouldn't do it to other people because those people will have God and I on their side, and with us, nothing bad is going to happen. We are going to take a stand, because we have had enough, and something has got to change, before someone gives up, and either moves away or commits suicide because they feel like no matter how hard they try they will never be good enough to get into a group.
Now, I don't know about you but I would much rather be in a group with people who are kind of on the lower part of the food chain of the social statuses at school because they were being themselves, than at the top of the food chain in a group full of fakers or wannabes who bring everybody down that they think are below them because they will never be good enough no matter how hard they try to get up there with them to get out of the mess. Fakers are just a mess, and they are really going no where in their lives, and their futures won't be that good because they didn't start in middle school like those people who were staying true to themselves were. I know peer pressure makes mostly everyone do things, but honestly, get over peer pressure, it doesn't matter. You do what you want to do and don't give second thoughts. Live your life without regrets. You are you, and you do what you want to do, and you lead your life the way you want to lead it.
Bullying and judging others isn't cool because we are all different, and we should accept that we will never be the same. Really, we are all on the same level, and we all matter. We all belong where we are and leading our lives the way that we are leading them to get to our goals. We are trying to make our futures bright, and being in middle school and a teenager is hard enough especially when you are a girl like we all are, or so I hope we all are. Don't take life away from someone because they couldn't handle the extra drama that seemed to be pointed at them enough to take their own life. Stop while you are ahead, and go out of your way even if it does mean lowering your status a bit to show people that when we aren't faking things just to look cool and get to the top, we are all the same.
My school is going to have another blue out against bullying day and bullying seminar again soon, and I hope that this time things change and stay changed, instead of going back to normal a couple of days after the seminar. Remember this, being strong about everything, and just praying to God to help you through the day like I do will help you through everything, and the day until you get to a place where you can let it all out because I know being strong when something like this happens is hard to do. I have gone through it for four years myself.
I'm taking a stand because I am going to no longer be a victim of bullying. I am going to be that person that is going to help victims see the good in themselves, and see that they do matter in this world, and that we do need them because they are very special. I want to see them see that their future is bright, and it really does get better. I want to bring people together, and make our school stronger, and more like a family earlier than high school because the time that we need to be tight is now, and now is like right now that a change needs to start occurring. It is time that people take a stand and say something about how treating people like they aren't worth it isn't right because we are all people and we are all on the same level.
I just want to say that you are not alone, and that we are going to win this fight, and cross that finish line with a smile on our faces, because we stood up, and we fought because we had enough and were ready just to be ourselves again and do the same with the other people. This world has a bright future ahead of it but the movement begins now, and it begins with you. Go out of your way because you want to with your friends and start a group and invite others to join it constantly. I mean you need to show them that anybody can be in the group. It doesn't matter what your social status is, it's just that everyone needs to know that they have a person there for them. Everyone needs to be able to have good fun memories of their time in middle school because it is short. Everyone needs to be able to say that they have a group at lunch that does all kinds of things and is a place for anyone and everyone because everyone in the group has had their eyes opened to the way of living in this world and wanted to change that.
I want the group to seem like a family outside of your family, your school family, where we are all so close, that we can go to anyone in that group during a time of need, and know that we are going to get the things that we need in order to cheer up and move on because those people get us, because they really know and accept us. I want the group to make middle school seem easier, and make people think like wow, this is a breeze because there is no drama because we are all so tight with each other. I want to make sure that there is something done about those people who feel like they will never be good enough for anyone because they are good enough. They will have bright futures once they get out of this dark tunnel. I am beginning to see the light myself, and I am sprinting towards it. I want to help others out ASAP because I know that my story can make deep changes in the way that some people see their lives or futures because I went through bullying myself and I know because I have been planning for my bright future that things are going to go right for me, and I want to make others feel like they matter, and should keep moving and living for their future, because everyone has those dreams of homecomings, proms, and graduations, weddings and families.
Being strong, and reaching out and helping those in need of help will go a long ways, here and it just might save a life of a bullying victim who is to the point where they feel like no matter how hard they try they will never matter enough to be noticed by mankind who is really cruel. Keep pushing forward, and keep that chin up buttercup because things are about to get better because I am going to start the movement tomorrow, even though it should be already started by those reading this post right now.
The teenage years are a whirlwind, with people trying to find who they really are, and hopefully our blog will help us all survive these odd years of our life.
Thursday, September 26, 2013
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Wild Ride
Hey, blogettes! Sorry, I haven't written a post for like a long time, I know, and I also know that it is late on a Saturday night, but this is the only time that I have to get a post in for a while. I have been so busy lately, and yeah, I know that shouldn't be an excuse because I know that you ladies are busy and you still take time to read this blog which is unepic because it is written by me, an unepic person. My days have been packed with play practice, emergencies with myself, and cross country, causing me to fall behind on my blogging sorry. As of right now, I am only on call for play practice one night a week unless cross country calls, and then I get to miss out on a little bit of things.
I have been receiving some notes on my back lately, and let me just say this. I am honored to say that someone actually cares enough to write a note about me hurtful or not, they care enough to waste paper on me. I injured my back at our last cross country meet, and I don't know how that will affect the rest of the season. It will be a huge downer if I have to set out because I have trained so hard, and I was showing that at the last meet, and then I lost my footing because the down hill on one hill was slick, and I got a back burner. Never again will I be passing on hills, because it seems like I have bad luck and problems when I do that, and I might have a back issue for the rest of my life because the coaches said that sometimes these injuries never heal.
I have also been busy trying to help out with my grandma as she has no short term memory left, and needs someone to be with her at all times, or else something bad could happen. It's super hard to see her the way that she is now, but I guess it comes with aging for some people, and it won't go away until she dies, so I am going to get used to it. I have to be strong for my dad and grandpa. It also helps that we read Chicken Soup for the Soul books in English and sometimes the articles are about dealing with this type of stuff that I am going through so that has also helped me keep my cool a little bit better.
I feel like Twitter has helped me see that people can be way different online, and then you have those people that are like the real thing online as well. I like the people that are themselves while online as well. I hate those people that fake things online. I have vowed to be true to myself and to you ladies while writing posts for this blog. So just know that everything that you are reading on here is true, because I hate fakers and would never be one myself. I follow those people who are being themselves as well, and just to be nice, I follow the people that follow me back, although my sister has told me only to follow people back if I really want to follow them back, not because they are following me. I'll admit that at this time, I just want to keep all of my followers, and try to gain some more, which I know won't happen because I am the type of person who really isn't that social because she doesn't have much of a life.
You're probably even lucky that this blog exists ladies, and I even had the guts to get it started. No, I may not be using it right, and no my posts may not be spectacular, but we kind of have a place to go, and chill out after a long rough day at middle school. After all, being a middle school girl is rough, but being a teenager, things are all the more rougher. There is more pressure to be flawless because this is the time where people start to fall in love, because we have some of that going on, and this is the time where drama tends to flare because everyone is trying to find themselves, and is in this PMSy state as we go through puberty, but we all got the talk, so I am not going to go into any more detail about that one.
We have also learned that boys are so far behind us when it comes to manners, and how you act at the age that you are, you don't so stupid things because you know better, and you don't freak out about the mistakes that people make because believe me you will make your own and you won't like it when the people who you pointed out call you out on that mistake. They still freak out at burps, or farts, and they still react funny to silly things, even if it is just joking they still are idiots when they do it. One boy in our grade is obsessed with volleyball girls when they are in spandex and in the bumping position. He likes how their butts look, and wants to be the manager of the volleyball team just for that reason. In your dreams, Max, in your dreams. They would never hire a pervert to be the manager. We are much more smarter than that.
Besides, I'm sure that the seventh grade girls would like to have an eighth grader or a more mature seventh grade boy be their manger because there is one boy that is at least mature enough not to freak out about girls in spandex. Anyways, good night, and I will write again as soon as I get the chance to because being the busy girls with lives that you all are, you deserve better and my excuse should not be an excuse compared to your schedules.
I have been receiving some notes on my back lately, and let me just say this. I am honored to say that someone actually cares enough to write a note about me hurtful or not, they care enough to waste paper on me. I injured my back at our last cross country meet, and I don't know how that will affect the rest of the season. It will be a huge downer if I have to set out because I have trained so hard, and I was showing that at the last meet, and then I lost my footing because the down hill on one hill was slick, and I got a back burner. Never again will I be passing on hills, because it seems like I have bad luck and problems when I do that, and I might have a back issue for the rest of my life because the coaches said that sometimes these injuries never heal.
I have also been busy trying to help out with my grandma as she has no short term memory left, and needs someone to be with her at all times, or else something bad could happen. It's super hard to see her the way that she is now, but I guess it comes with aging for some people, and it won't go away until she dies, so I am going to get used to it. I have to be strong for my dad and grandpa. It also helps that we read Chicken Soup for the Soul books in English and sometimes the articles are about dealing with this type of stuff that I am going through so that has also helped me keep my cool a little bit better.
I feel like Twitter has helped me see that people can be way different online, and then you have those people that are like the real thing online as well. I like the people that are themselves while online as well. I hate those people that fake things online. I have vowed to be true to myself and to you ladies while writing posts for this blog. So just know that everything that you are reading on here is true, because I hate fakers and would never be one myself. I follow those people who are being themselves as well, and just to be nice, I follow the people that follow me back, although my sister has told me only to follow people back if I really want to follow them back, not because they are following me. I'll admit that at this time, I just want to keep all of my followers, and try to gain some more, which I know won't happen because I am the type of person who really isn't that social because she doesn't have much of a life.
You're probably even lucky that this blog exists ladies, and I even had the guts to get it started. No, I may not be using it right, and no my posts may not be spectacular, but we kind of have a place to go, and chill out after a long rough day at middle school. After all, being a middle school girl is rough, but being a teenager, things are all the more rougher. There is more pressure to be flawless because this is the time where people start to fall in love, because we have some of that going on, and this is the time where drama tends to flare because everyone is trying to find themselves, and is in this PMSy state as we go through puberty, but we all got the talk, so I am not going to go into any more detail about that one.
We have also learned that boys are so far behind us when it comes to manners, and how you act at the age that you are, you don't so stupid things because you know better, and you don't freak out about the mistakes that people make because believe me you will make your own and you won't like it when the people who you pointed out call you out on that mistake. They still freak out at burps, or farts, and they still react funny to silly things, even if it is just joking they still are idiots when they do it. One boy in our grade is obsessed with volleyball girls when they are in spandex and in the bumping position. He likes how their butts look, and wants to be the manager of the volleyball team just for that reason. In your dreams, Max, in your dreams. They would never hire a pervert to be the manager. We are much more smarter than that.
Besides, I'm sure that the seventh grade girls would like to have an eighth grader or a more mature seventh grade boy be their manger because there is one boy that is at least mature enough not to freak out about girls in spandex. Anyways, good night, and I will write again as soon as I get the chance to because being the busy girls with lives that you all are, you deserve better and my excuse should not be an excuse compared to your schedules.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Wish Me Luck
Hey, blogettes! More details came in today about our cross country meet on Tuesday, and I am even more nervous now than ever because we are against class 3A schools as noted before, and there are 21 other teams besides us. This meet seems to be a bigger meet of this season. Then again, for most schools this is the season opener. I am hoping to do better than what I have been doing in practice, and really show the world that I can do this and I am a serious runner in this sport. I want people to think of me as a threat, not a target to get. I want to show people that I am stronger, and that they will have to make changes to pass me. I am going to keep my pace throughout the race, and keep on beating my times, hopefully.
I know that every course is different, and some may have more hills, which takes me longer, as they tend to be more difficult and demanding for me. I am just going to try my hardest to get around the same time or below at each meet. I want to see how I improve over the season because I want to know that I have accomplished something great for once. I want to show the world that you can do anything if you push yourself to train and do it. I didn't want to run cross country, but after pushing myself, I am learning to love the sport, blisters, dry mouth, burning sensation in your lungs and all. I am learning to love sweat, and push through the pain. Those things are coming along slowly, but I know that they are coming because this practice was easy for me.
I think I will do fine at the meet because this practice we ran 3.4 miles, with some big hills, and I finished with a time of 40:55. I am so proud of myself, because I figured that somehow I shaved a minute off of my mile, because I must have pushed myself super hard. Believe me, I had to crawl into the shade after this run because I was so tired from pushing myself. My foot where my large blister popped yesterday hurt so bad that I wanted to cry but I held back the tears because I was busy getting stretched out and relaxed. That run was awesome. I felt like I had just won something bigger than a run for practice. I felt like I was at a meet, and I crossed that finish line to a cheering team and crowd. I am hoping that we will have a crowd there to support us. Otherwise, it is going to be really hard for me at the end, because I feed off of their cheering and energy.
Our clothes also came in, and they are kind of big, and will be too hot to wear on the day of our meet to raise awareness for our team. I know I am probably going to go with my team shirt with the sleeves rolled up when I am outside, and a pair of shorts, possibly even my uniform shorts. Sweat pants will not work in our surprisingly hot for this time of year type of weather that we are going to have on the day of the meet. The coach told us to plan on running as of right now, but if it continues to get hotter, the meet could get canceled. That would make me very sad, because I have looked forward to this meet, and pushed myself so hard these past few practices to prepare. I feel more ready for this more than I have ever felt ready for anything. I am a little nervous, but hey, aren't we all? We are going to be running on unknown turf. I have an advantage though, because I have been on part of the course I think.
I will try to film a vlog here pretty soon, but we will see how that works out because I have been so busy lately with everything. I know I promised you, but I want the vlog to be good. I don't want it to have too many interruptions because that would mean actually having to put it into a movie instead of just a clip which is quick and easy upload to this blog. Videos take forever to upload unless they are off of Youtube.
Sorry, I kind of had to cut my post in science off short. We got ready to go to lunch early because we all worked so hard in class, that he teacher decided to reward us. I know it probably left you hanging, but I was so hungry, that I cut it short to get to lunch. I always like how sometimes if he sees that we are making great efforts in our work to get it done that he lets us go early. I really like beating the rush and sorta being the first ones in line, which doesn't matter to me because I always bring my lunch to conserve money, and because I find it to be better for me, and that way the leftovers I can take for cross country.
School pictures I think went better than I thought they would, but we will see how the picture turned out when I get my ID. My outfit choice kept on slipping, and I have now officially made it my honor to say that I will no longer be wearing it thanks to my friends who had the decency to point the issue out to me. I also had some issues with my shoes, and that was also hard to work with with my large blister, and it being so sore that I had to take the elevator. It's good to know that people have my back when it comes to things like that because it is kind of hard to see if I have it fixed just right without a mirror. My sister and I are both in cross country, and we both have a meet in the same place on the same day, but at different times. I am so happy that she will hopefully be there to cheer me on, but if she isn't that is fine too. That also comes in handy because I know that I have to get a good time to impress her or I won't hear the end of it. I will just hear, you are too slow!
We have campsites at the meet where we stretch, and hang out, and report to after the meet. It is also the place where all of our stuff comes with us because they do something with the bus that we need our stuff off of the bus for. My plans for the bus ride, no matter how long or short, are as follows: Listen to music, sip Gatorade, and lean against the open window of the bus and relax. I am going to save energy, and use it all at the meet. I am going to cross the finish line with nothing left, and then try to sleep on the bus ride home, and sip more Gatorade. I am going to listen to calming music instead of my pump up kind because I want my body to relax instead of the nerves go up.
Our cross country team is prepared for the most part for this meet. We have uniforms, a strong bond, great running skills, and I think we are going to have a lot of fun and success this season. I know that even though the season hasn't even started yet that I have gotten both of those down and then some. I have even been surprised by what I could do by myself. I have been shocked, and my outlook on the world has been changed. I feel like nothing is impossible now, after everything that I have been through with cross country. That is why cross country is so good. It teaches you more than pushing yourself to be a better runner, and how to get along with your team, and trust them and get close with them even if they are from a different school, it teaches you skills that you can actually take away and use in your life and do great things.
Cross country has opened my eyes. It has let me see that I can do anything if I just push myself and believe that I can. If you fill your head with negative thoughts you won't be able to do it easy. I keep telling myself that you can do it, and that I believe and then I keep on praying for God to help me through, and keep my body moving and fighting towards that line. When you are almost out of energy at the end if you did it right, it should be a fight for every last drop of energy that you have in you to get your body to that line. That is when you know that you have done everything, and that you did great. I feel like that is the time where I feel like a winner. If I don't feel like that, I make sure I push myself throughout the next day, and then at the next practice.
I like the outlook that people have. It is if you give anything less than your best then you are sacrificing the gift. We will give it our all because we are not going to give up that gift easy. We are a team that will stay together through memories forever. Practices are kind of tough to let that one shine, but when we go to meets, is when the fun stuff comes in. I know what you are thinking, couldn't you do homework on the bus, the answer to that is no. There are too many things that go on, and it is so loud you can barely hear yourself think. I like that, and I am getting all my schoolwork done on time so this isn't an issue for me. I manage my time and I plan ahead. I try to do any work that I can ahead of time so that it is done, and then I can focus on whatever cross country or the musical throws my way, like on Monday we begin dancing and blocking in musical practice. I know that is going to take some time, and I am probably going to end up practicing some on my own time as well.
My back still hurts from the muscle injury, and the coach said that the muscle may never heal. That kind of broke my heart, because I can only lean back so far before I scream in pain, which means that my dreams of being a high jumper are most likely crushed. I loved the high jump the moment that I tried it. I knew that when I got into middle school track that was what I was going to do. I also knew that of long jump but that one might be out as well. I really don't think I would do any running events, but I am not going to knock that one out. I might do sprints, or distance. It just depends.
I am not as tight with the people from my school as I am with the people from the others, which is sad, but some of them are mean to me. However I have made friends with a person from our school that is on the team. He really likes me as a friend. He is older than me and I think that he has a girl friend so that one is out of the question if you were one of those people who were going to take it that way. Oh, and in case you are wondering. I was flat out told by a guy that would not be worth wasting time dating because I wouldn't turn out anything good. I was grossed out by this one, but at that time, I did look kind of ugly.
Now, though some things have changed, and I hope that one day, there will be a guy out there who likes me for me, and I like him for him. I am only in middle school, so I know that there is no rush. Besides, I don't need boy drama in my life because I am already packed to the max, and would have no time for any of that stuff. I am not even going to talk about boys anymore because I know that there might be some of you out there that might take this the wrong way thinking that I am jealous or upset. I am not either of those. I am fine, it's just that I am planning for like my future when I get into high school because it is only a year away. I want to plan ahead s that I can try to make those things happen when I get there.
Sorry this post got kind of long. I guess I didn't realize how long it was because I had auto scroll on, so it would move down every time that the page got full, so I thought that I was fairly short. I guess I have learned my lesson not to use auto scroll on things. I guess I had a lot of random things on my mind to talk about with you. I will try harder next time to keep it my usual length because I feel like that is easier for you ladies to read because it isn't so much information all at once.
I know that every course is different, and some may have more hills, which takes me longer, as they tend to be more difficult and demanding for me. I am just going to try my hardest to get around the same time or below at each meet. I want to see how I improve over the season because I want to know that I have accomplished something great for once. I want to show the world that you can do anything if you push yourself to train and do it. I didn't want to run cross country, but after pushing myself, I am learning to love the sport, blisters, dry mouth, burning sensation in your lungs and all. I am learning to love sweat, and push through the pain. Those things are coming along slowly, but I know that they are coming because this practice was easy for me.
I think I will do fine at the meet because this practice we ran 3.4 miles, with some big hills, and I finished with a time of 40:55. I am so proud of myself, because I figured that somehow I shaved a minute off of my mile, because I must have pushed myself super hard. Believe me, I had to crawl into the shade after this run because I was so tired from pushing myself. My foot where my large blister popped yesterday hurt so bad that I wanted to cry but I held back the tears because I was busy getting stretched out and relaxed. That run was awesome. I felt like I had just won something bigger than a run for practice. I felt like I was at a meet, and I crossed that finish line to a cheering team and crowd. I am hoping that we will have a crowd there to support us. Otherwise, it is going to be really hard for me at the end, because I feed off of their cheering and energy.
Our clothes also came in, and they are kind of big, and will be too hot to wear on the day of our meet to raise awareness for our team. I know I am probably going to go with my team shirt with the sleeves rolled up when I am outside, and a pair of shorts, possibly even my uniform shorts. Sweat pants will not work in our surprisingly hot for this time of year type of weather that we are going to have on the day of the meet. The coach told us to plan on running as of right now, but if it continues to get hotter, the meet could get canceled. That would make me very sad, because I have looked forward to this meet, and pushed myself so hard these past few practices to prepare. I feel more ready for this more than I have ever felt ready for anything. I am a little nervous, but hey, aren't we all? We are going to be running on unknown turf. I have an advantage though, because I have been on part of the course I think.
I will try to film a vlog here pretty soon, but we will see how that works out because I have been so busy lately with everything. I know I promised you, but I want the vlog to be good. I don't want it to have too many interruptions because that would mean actually having to put it into a movie instead of just a clip which is quick and easy upload to this blog. Videos take forever to upload unless they are off of Youtube.
Sorry, I kind of had to cut my post in science off short. We got ready to go to lunch early because we all worked so hard in class, that he teacher decided to reward us. I know it probably left you hanging, but I was so hungry, that I cut it short to get to lunch. I always like how sometimes if he sees that we are making great efforts in our work to get it done that he lets us go early. I really like beating the rush and sorta being the first ones in line, which doesn't matter to me because I always bring my lunch to conserve money, and because I find it to be better for me, and that way the leftovers I can take for cross country.
School pictures I think went better than I thought they would, but we will see how the picture turned out when I get my ID. My outfit choice kept on slipping, and I have now officially made it my honor to say that I will no longer be wearing it thanks to my friends who had the decency to point the issue out to me. I also had some issues with my shoes, and that was also hard to work with with my large blister, and it being so sore that I had to take the elevator. It's good to know that people have my back when it comes to things like that because it is kind of hard to see if I have it fixed just right without a mirror. My sister and I are both in cross country, and we both have a meet in the same place on the same day, but at different times. I am so happy that she will hopefully be there to cheer me on, but if she isn't that is fine too. That also comes in handy because I know that I have to get a good time to impress her or I won't hear the end of it. I will just hear, you are too slow!
We have campsites at the meet where we stretch, and hang out, and report to after the meet. It is also the place where all of our stuff comes with us because they do something with the bus that we need our stuff off of the bus for. My plans for the bus ride, no matter how long or short, are as follows: Listen to music, sip Gatorade, and lean against the open window of the bus and relax. I am going to save energy, and use it all at the meet. I am going to cross the finish line with nothing left, and then try to sleep on the bus ride home, and sip more Gatorade. I am going to listen to calming music instead of my pump up kind because I want my body to relax instead of the nerves go up.
Our cross country team is prepared for the most part for this meet. We have uniforms, a strong bond, great running skills, and I think we are going to have a lot of fun and success this season. I know that even though the season hasn't even started yet that I have gotten both of those down and then some. I have even been surprised by what I could do by myself. I have been shocked, and my outlook on the world has been changed. I feel like nothing is impossible now, after everything that I have been through with cross country. That is why cross country is so good. It teaches you more than pushing yourself to be a better runner, and how to get along with your team, and trust them and get close with them even if they are from a different school, it teaches you skills that you can actually take away and use in your life and do great things.
Cross country has opened my eyes. It has let me see that I can do anything if I just push myself and believe that I can. If you fill your head with negative thoughts you won't be able to do it easy. I keep telling myself that you can do it, and that I believe and then I keep on praying for God to help me through, and keep my body moving and fighting towards that line. When you are almost out of energy at the end if you did it right, it should be a fight for every last drop of energy that you have in you to get your body to that line. That is when you know that you have done everything, and that you did great. I feel like that is the time where I feel like a winner. If I don't feel like that, I make sure I push myself throughout the next day, and then at the next practice.
I like the outlook that people have. It is if you give anything less than your best then you are sacrificing the gift. We will give it our all because we are not going to give up that gift easy. We are a team that will stay together through memories forever. Practices are kind of tough to let that one shine, but when we go to meets, is when the fun stuff comes in. I know what you are thinking, couldn't you do homework on the bus, the answer to that is no. There are too many things that go on, and it is so loud you can barely hear yourself think. I like that, and I am getting all my schoolwork done on time so this isn't an issue for me. I manage my time and I plan ahead. I try to do any work that I can ahead of time so that it is done, and then I can focus on whatever cross country or the musical throws my way, like on Monday we begin dancing and blocking in musical practice. I know that is going to take some time, and I am probably going to end up practicing some on my own time as well.
My back still hurts from the muscle injury, and the coach said that the muscle may never heal. That kind of broke my heart, because I can only lean back so far before I scream in pain, which means that my dreams of being a high jumper are most likely crushed. I loved the high jump the moment that I tried it. I knew that when I got into middle school track that was what I was going to do. I also knew that of long jump but that one might be out as well. I really don't think I would do any running events, but I am not going to knock that one out. I might do sprints, or distance. It just depends.
I am not as tight with the people from my school as I am with the people from the others, which is sad, but some of them are mean to me. However I have made friends with a person from our school that is on the team. He really likes me as a friend. He is older than me and I think that he has a girl friend so that one is out of the question if you were one of those people who were going to take it that way. Oh, and in case you are wondering. I was flat out told by a guy that would not be worth wasting time dating because I wouldn't turn out anything good. I was grossed out by this one, but at that time, I did look kind of ugly.
Now, though some things have changed, and I hope that one day, there will be a guy out there who likes me for me, and I like him for him. I am only in middle school, so I know that there is no rush. Besides, I don't need boy drama in my life because I am already packed to the max, and would have no time for any of that stuff. I am not even going to talk about boys anymore because I know that there might be some of you out there that might take this the wrong way thinking that I am jealous or upset. I am not either of those. I am fine, it's just that I am planning for like my future when I get into high school because it is only a year away. I want to plan ahead s that I can try to make those things happen when I get there.
Sorry this post got kind of long. I guess I didn't realize how long it was because I had auto scroll on, so it would move down every time that the page got full, so I thought that I was fairly short. I guess I have learned my lesson not to use auto scroll on things. I guess I had a lot of random things on my mind to talk about with you. I will try harder next time to keep it my usual length because I feel like that is easier for you ladies to read because it isn't so much information all at once.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Updates Done to Music Page
Hey, blogettes! We have a newly updated music page to work with now, and it also includes a video of my all time favorite pump up song. The music page had to be updated because what songs I like to listen to before I go out and do something has changed big time, and I noticed that looking at the list that I had on my computer to the list that I had on my iPod. Most of the songs on the list are songs you have probably heard people play for pump up time also known as warm ups, or cool downs, wherever, and whatever the case might be. Some of them are Christian, but I just love the lyrics to them. I love how moving they are, and how the songs just want me to get up and go, and not worry about anything.
When I run, I want songs that help me forget the nerves, and just help me focus on finishing the course, and I want songs that have a good beat, and are easy to remember so that I can think them through in my head, and have a beat to run on or off of. I guess that is why most people run with music because music helps them. It helps me, a lot, but I have learned not to rely on it because we aren't allowed to listen to music while we run during cross country. However, conditioning time is different because we are all belting out songs left, and right, and I was almost tempted to get out my laptop and play some of the songs that I have on my iTunes, because they were the same songs as we were singing and I could tell that the singers were tired, and needed to rest. But let's be honest, conditioning sucks without music because you are focused on the pain and how tough it is when you should be focused on well nothing really because it is kind of like your cool down.
Cross country is a very challenging sport both mentally and physically. You have to remember the course, and then the map that was shown at the very beginning in case you get lost so that you can get back onto the route and catch up again. You have to physically be able to change at a moments notice, and be ready for anything that Mother Nature could throw at you on the day of the race. The coach one time told us of a meet where it was so cold, and then of another meet where it was rainy and the runners finished in mud soaked clothing with wet hair from the rain. Talk about harsh conditions.
Now that I am thinking about it, being covered in mud would actually be really fun, and make that meet something that you would remember for a long time. Honestly, I have nothing to share with you about the time where I was in softball, because there was nothing that really happened to me when I was that little that was memorable. It would also show that you did not wimp out, and you did everything.
When I run, I want songs that help me forget the nerves, and just help me focus on finishing the course, and I want songs that have a good beat, and are easy to remember so that I can think them through in my head, and have a beat to run on or off of. I guess that is why most people run with music because music helps them. It helps me, a lot, but I have learned not to rely on it because we aren't allowed to listen to music while we run during cross country. However, conditioning time is different because we are all belting out songs left, and right, and I was almost tempted to get out my laptop and play some of the songs that I have on my iTunes, because they were the same songs as we were singing and I could tell that the singers were tired, and needed to rest. But let's be honest, conditioning sucks without music because you are focused on the pain and how tough it is when you should be focused on well nothing really because it is kind of like your cool down.
Cross country is a very challenging sport both mentally and physically. You have to remember the course, and then the map that was shown at the very beginning in case you get lost so that you can get back onto the route and catch up again. You have to physically be able to change at a moments notice, and be ready for anything that Mother Nature could throw at you on the day of the race. The coach one time told us of a meet where it was so cold, and then of another meet where it was rainy and the runners finished in mud soaked clothing with wet hair from the rain. Talk about harsh conditions.
Now that I am thinking about it, being covered in mud would actually be really fun, and make that meet something that you would remember for a long time. Honestly, I have nothing to share with you about the time where I was in softball, because there was nothing that really happened to me when I was that little that was memorable. It would also show that you did not wimp out, and you did everything.
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