Hey all you awesome people out there right now that are reading this! I am here to tell you that I made a new and really awesome blog, to write about high school and all the stuff that comes with that. I mean it was time for a change as well. It was time for something new. I might write on here, and make this blog more of a private type. But, I don't know yet, because there are so many bad and good memories on this blog that it is just bittersweet and I don't know what to do or where to go with this one because so many things have happened, and this was my middle school life when there was a lot happening. It is different and hard, but we keep moving forward and adjusting to whatever life decides to throw at us. Tonight is my last tennis meet, and I am so ready. I am going to miss getting to see everyone everyday.
I mean tennis was a good emotional break for me because I could be the real me and not be judged for being different because the people at the other school that I play tennis for are really understanding, and nice, as well as accepting. They come from a bigger school than me though, so I am sure that has something to do with it. I am sure of that because they get to see and do more. We also were a team that came together, and set a goal to go places where the tennis team has never gone before, and we got what we wanted this season. I mean we won the conference title. Our season isn't done yet anyways, we are hungry for that state title now. We really want it more than anything. We deserve it too because of everything that we have had to go through. We also have to prove ourselves because our school that I play for, doesn't provide uniforms, and the tennis courts that we practice on stink because they are cracked and chipped, and very dangerous. I mean I accidently faceplanted during practice and broke my glasses and my nose. That was awful, and that was at the beginning of the season.
I have also found where I belong and that is playing sports for that other school because they make me forget about all the bad things that happen at my school because they make me feel worth while. They make me feel like I am just one of them, and that I don't need to change to be good enough and fit in. They get the fact that everyone is different and they respect that. I really like that. I am proud to be a Mustang even though the school that I go to is a Lion. I am proud of everything that I have done this year in sports, and everything that there is to overcome. There is a lot to be said and done yet, because I am not a senior in high school, but only a freshman. That means there is a lot more adventure, and a lot more fun to be had. That means more memories made at that other school as well as friendships because I don't have that at this school.
I am happy to report that I have learned to ignore the bullies now because they don't know what they are talking about. It is hard to do sometimes, but we make do and try our best to shake things off and move forward like nothing happened. It's an uphill battle but I am willing to fight. I mean my life is worth something, and I am going to fight for it. I am pleased to say that I am overcoming bullying and reaching that goal of showing people that suicide is not the answer. It might be hard, but you have to be willing to go for it and get down and dirty to get things done and earn your place.
Anyways, I just thought that I would log on and write, and tell you what was going on. I feel so bad that Music had to log off, but we are both really busy for high school, and she was going to log back on here just so she could remember the stuff that happened back in the day. I don't want any of that to be forgotten and therefore I am deciding to keep this blog up I guess. But I also don't want it to sit here gathering dust online because I am not updating it. I am going to see what I want to do with it, but it will be something awesome and this blog will not be forgotten. I can promise you all that right now from the bottom of my heart.