Hey, blogettes! I'm here with some more news. I released a new page and it is called The Voice. It has stuff about what my school has done to help end the bullying epidemic that has hit this nation pretty hard. It has even driven some people to the point of taking their life, and sometimes the life of others. If we all work together, I have faith that bullying will end. It did for me thanks for my friends speaking out. It's okay to do things that are outside of your zone. I do them all the time now, but I would have not have been able to do those things without my friends encouraging me. Make sure that you have some tissues handy because no kidding, even though it happened to me, looking back at what all had to happen to make me the girl that I am right now, made me cry a bit as well. I think that it would be very inspiring to any girl out there especially those who have gone through bullying as well.
I have been a bullying survivor for almost a month now, and I think that it is high time that I let my story be heard. Who knows, it might prevent some girl who is a victim of severe bullying at times like I was, from committing suicide because they feel like they are what the people say to them when they look in the mirror. I know I felt that way for a little while this year when the worse part of the bullying hit me right in the face.
However, I knew that suicide was not my answer, and I began to change. I began to rebel against what my mother said for me to wear to school to be free to just be myself, and wear what I felt good in, and not self conscious in. I lost weight which in the end amounted to 67 pounds, and when I had my physical last week, I was told I was a tiny bit underweight, and needed to gain some. I guess I'm back to my meaty diet to make that happen. I told the doctor that I was going out for cross country next year, but she told me that I needed to gain weight so that I could make it through the season without passing out or going through times where I had some lack of energy. I agree, I may have gone a tad bit hog wild with the weight loss thing, but hey, in the end, the bullying stopped so you can't say that it wasn't for nothing. It was for this result which is more a sigh of relief.
I'm now in the process where I am revamping my wardrobe so that I can for sure fit in with the crowd. Even though I am not the real me, I am still glad that I am the new me because I like the new me more than I did the old me. That was the only bright light I could find out of the three years of bullying that I had gotten. It made me a stronger, and better person. It made me find that there is something good in everyday, and that it is just waiting for you to go out and find it, so that it can help you do something that will make the day more epic.
That's how I guess I got to be so happy and overly peppy. If you saw me in the halls now, you probably would not be able to point and say that I was a victim of bullying, some of which was severe, off the top of your head. As much as I would like to keep it that way, I feel like my story will do something good for someone else, possibly even save their life, but it can't do that if it remains unwritten, untold, and unheard to the public.
I will release that page with my story whenever I have time, but right now, I better get to bed so that I can give school my all tomorrow. I didn't realize that it was this late already. Oh well time flies when I am doing something that I love a lot like writing a post for this blog, as that is a huge success for me when it comes to dysgraphia, which is a writing disorder that I have. It makes writing things that will make sense for others, and having ideas that are good enough to run and do something with harder for me to find and write about. Good night, blogettes!
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