Laptop Post

                                    Hey, blogettes! My older sister is being nice and letting me use her laptop to write this post today. I guess it's because she is in a good mood because she had a date with her boyfriend this afternoon. Anyways, I'm writing this post to tell you about what happened last night. I talked to Ali Givens the girl who started the Voice program, and she totally disapproved of me being a honorary member of the Voice because that meant that I was a part of it when really I should be in the crowd of middle schoolers learning from them. I saw what she meant, and I just told her that I wasn't a member of the groups that went around talking to the classes, I told her that I was more of the behind the scenes organizer.
                                   She said that was nice that I was helping the program stay organized, but I could tell that she was a little disappointed that I was involved in the program in the first place because it is for high schoolers only, so I quickly got off of that subject, and I just walked away from her because I wasn't going to have anymore drama.
                                    You are probably wondering how I talked to her last night because she is a softball player, so she would be busy playing her game, but I stayed after, and I talked to her while she was packing up her gear.
                                    Running my sister's laptop is a cinch because it is is a MacBook G4. It's silver, and really sleek, and professional looking even though it is huge and very thick. I've got skills with any kind of MacBook because I got to work on one along side most of the girls reading this blog throughout the school year, because our school has a wonderful 1 to 1 program for students in 6-12 grade. The program has opened up a lot of doors for me, and some of them were amazing, and others just made me wonder why I even bothered to open the door into something negative like it gave me.
                                  I also wrote in my journal last night about the incident that happened in the morning and then it hit me, I needed to go my own way or else people will keep on thinking that it is okay to treat me like that because I keep on listening to them and doing and being what they want me to be. I'm never who I want to be until now. From now on, I am no longer holding back my feelings or trying to hide them, I'm going to show them. From now on, I'm only going to listen to my heart and let it lead me. I need to do that or else my future is going to be really hard because I did nothing that I needed to do in order to be prepared for the job that I am hoping to hold.
                                     I know that I will never be perfect enough to live up to your standards, so I mise well at least live up to my loser low standards so that I can feel like I matter even though I don't because I can't do anything right, and I really don't have a social life besides this blog. I'm just going to earn the title of the Biggest Loser Ever in Middle School so I mise well do things that will bring me success in the future because success is too far to reach and too late to reach at this time.
                                   That doesn't mean I'm not going to try and reach it, believe me I am going to try with all of my heart, and it might happen because when I get onto something I try and make it work. I'm going to find myself, and be myself, and not listen to what the other people out there have to say about the person that I am turning out to be because it will please me and help me out in my future which is all that will ever really matter. I'm not going to quit on this blog though, even though it really isn't me.
                                  Instead, I'm going to take this blog on a totally different path that will show me, and who I am and how far I've come in finding myself, and yet do things that represent you readers out there as well because this blog won't turn out to be all about me after all. This is a blog for the public, and it is going to stay that way. That's my promise to you out there. Keep on reading my blog and you will see the change throughout the rest of this summer and into the school year. My blog is about to get crazy, fun, and interactive. It's going to be better than it has ever been before because I am going to get more ideas, and I am just going to try and run with them as much as I can.
                               Of course that doesn't mean that it will always end up on the blog because sometimes it's really stupid or would not make sense, and I am not going to trash the blog. I am going to keep it clean, and easy and fun for you to read and understand. Maybe it will even spark some ideas for you to run with, and do great things in this world with. This is our world, let's shape it together into the world we want it to be.

You Never Realize How Handy a Laptop is Until You Don't Have One

                          Hey, blogettes! I'm so sorry that I haven't written on my blog for a long time. Believe me, I am trying to write on here more often, but it has been really hard because I am without a laptop, and my parents said that I can't use any of their computers, so if I want to write a post on my blog, I have to walk down to the library, and most of the time there is someone else on the computer, and I hate asking because it's weird, and I'm not that good at public speaking when I am being myself. Acting is something different that  I love to do because it doesn't feel weird talking in front of people because you have lines that you memorized, and technically, you aren't you, you are the person that you have been practicing for.
                          I never realized how much I relied on that laptop the school gave us to use until now because I am so reliant on my own two feet which are sore from my workouts to get me down to the library to use one of their computers. I know that you girls deserve to hear from me more often this summer, so I will try my hardest to get down to the library more often. Might not be any time soon anymore, because I am really busy trying to get ready for my back to back camp trips in two weeks. Anytime after that I will try to plan more trips. I tried writing a post on my Ipod, but that didn't turn out too well. It worked but it took me a long time because my thumbs are huge and the keys on the Ipod Touch Screen Keyboard are small, so it really wasn't a good mix.
                           Looking outside the library window, it looks like today will be a great day to go to the pool. Today is also a fellow Voice member's first day as a lifeguard, and she emailed me stating how nervous she was, and I told her that I think she was going to do fine. I mean, she has all the traits that I think a good lifeguard should have. I also told her not to be so nervous, because nervous people tend to be distracted, and that would really be a problem, because someone could drown. Some nerves just won't go away because lifeguards always have to be prepared and on edge.