Hey guys it's Music...and I obviously have some explaining to do. I kind of just turned into a ghost blogger and I haven't been on in ages. Now although some of it just falls back in me being a sucky person, I do have some excuses I'll pretend are valid. So first off for school we weren't given laptops, we were given iPads. Let me just say that wasn't the best choice. We don't have keyboards so it makes everything really hard to type and access anything that isn't in app form. However next year we will go back to receiving laptops so I can't wait till then. Next I have been really busy. Last year I didn't have much homework but now I'm usually up till around 10 pm doing my algebra homework. Excuse number three, I...I well I don't really know how to explain it. I've become more introverted in the past two years, which is more towards me always being like that and I'm finally finding who I am and accepting that. I've become a lot less social and spent more time on the internet mindlessly scrolling. I spend all day daydreaming about my dream life, and I think that that causes my sadness because I realize that those things may never happen. I really don't know how to make sense of it even to myself, I just used to be so happy and now I have good days and bad days but my bad days seem to happen more often. It's like I've turned into the stero-typical antisocial, angry, sad, emotional, music loving teenager who keeps her thoughts too herself. My mind is literally filled with thoughts flying and it drives me crazy. I guess you could say I'm in the phase of "finding who I am" but I don't know. I like to be alone and I used to love being around people, and I hold my emotions in till I snap. Again part of my sadness is brought on by me, because I've created like a fantasy world in my head where the boy I like likes me and my family never fights. This has all been really scatter-brained, but I hope you at least kind of understand what's going on and can forgive me for not writing. And sadly I'm sorry to say but I'm resigning from this wonderful blog. I've enjoyed it but I don't feel right saying that I partake in this blog, but never post or update anything. I haven't talked this over with Smiles so this is news to her, but I just don't want to keep you guys waiting and then never post. Next year will only get busier so I don't think that it will get any better. Thank you guys so much for being with me and although this is Smiles blog you made me feel welcome. I will keep this link so when I'm older I can look back and remember the middle school years of my life. All good things must come to an end, and I've reached my end on this blog. I loved my time here but it's time to start the next chapter in my life. <3
Solemnly sorry,
-- Music
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