Hey, blogettes! If I were to describe my summer in one word, that word would be uplifting. I've had a great summer overall, but there were a few bumps in the road. I had a black eye, and was on crutches for a week, from these boys at the local pool, they thought it would be fun to body slam me to the bottom, but they got kicked out so it wasn't really fun for them, there was some drama, and a terrible loss of life that is still hard on me believe it or not. But the good outweighed the bad stuff big time.
I went to see TobyMac in concert last night, and it was so uplifting and a really fun time. One of my friends who had seats down in front on the dirt track at the fair ground got asked by TobyMac himself to dance on stage during the last song. That was so cool. I'm now proud to say that I am a true Christian and I am not going to hide my faith away any longer because I found myself this summer so it is time now to show the world who I really am. I've been hiding for the past four years. It's time that I make my come back and leave my mark on this world. As a bullying survivor, I'm confident that this is the right time.
He played my favorite two songs, and I cried because Unstoppable brought me back to the time where I was being bullied and I played that just to have that confidence boost to get through the day, and City on Our Knees, well that was the song that I played when I first got in the bullying mess for some reason, and I will continue to play it even though I'm no longer in that mess praise the lord. It was just awful in those four years, that I'm so happy that I overcame and I never want to go back there again. I'm unstoppable now. I am going to do the things that I want to do because I want to leave MY mark on this world, not anyone else's mark.
In twenty one days, that will be happening, and I am kind of nervous. I hope people like and accept the real me, and if not they will have a long four or five years with me because I'm not changing anymore. I'll only change for me, because what I want is what counts. Not what anyone else wants. If I listened to other people like I did before I'd be going a million different directions and things would catch up with me sooner or later. Believe me I wish I could go back four years and change everything back but I can't do that. I wasted four years of my life.
My friends tried to tell me that from the start but I didn't bother to listen to them and now all I can say is sorry because they were right, and they left me. I have new friends now, but they won't ever be as good as the one who saw me through. She's a Christian as well, and thanked me for being so open about my faith on this blog. I just told her that I wasn't all the way open until now. Thanks for pushing me this far Rachel and TobyMac. I love you guys lots, and I look up to you as my role models because you are so amazing. I'll never be as amazing as you, or even close. I'd fall flat on my face and be back to square one before that would happen.
I'd also like to say thanks to all the blogettes who have viewed this blog and made it into what it is today. I would have given up a long time ago if it wasn't for you. The vlogs start in 21 days and I am nervous for that because I have to be spot on because I am recorded. These vlogs will make my blog be more interactive and allow you to have more of a connection to me, and the things that I write about.
This school year might get wild at times, but there is not going to be a dull free moment. I want to make sure that everyone is smiling, and doing good. No one deserves to feel down. I felt down a lot last year and I held those feelings in and put a fake smile on my face. No one could really understand what that year was like, but I made it through and I overcame bullying. I am now going to tell others that they need to spit out their feelings. It isn't healthy holding them in. Bullying is not okay and if you speak out and up against it, you'll get out sooner because the bullies know that they won't win. I didn't do this until the fourth year. I should have done it sooner but the lord had it all planned. It all happened for some reason or another, and I know that I can tell others about it.
If you are being bullied, I want you to know that I am here for you, and that you do matter and you do have a voice that needs to be heard. I know my passion was singing and acting. This blog is also my voice I guess. Oh, and here's a thing I learned about friendship a couple of weekends ago. It is possible to stumble upon friends. I did, and we have been texting each other a lot. This blog actually connected me with a friend as well who just adores this like crazy.
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